Everton midfielder Royston Drenthe admitted he had mixed emotions after their draw at QPR.
The Dutch midfielder fired the Blues ahead on 31 minutes with a rasping left-footed strike from 25 yards.
But five minutes later he conceded the free kick from which Bobby Zamora netted the hosts' equaliser.
"It was a good beginning for us in the match, but I think their number seven, (Adel) Taarabt, had a really good performance.
"That's where I got the yellow card. If I let him walk there, you never know what's going to happen. But from that free kick, they scored to make it 1-1.
"I thought I could get the ball with my right foot but he is so quick and he got the better of me this time. I think with the way he was playing, they deserved that goal.""I think my goal was a good thing," Drenthe told evertonfc.com. "But I feel a bit guilty so I have regular feelings.