Lee Bowyer admits a shocker against Manchester City last season was the making of him on his return to West Ham.
The midfielder told the Sunday Express: "Some of my performances weren't acceptable last year and my 45 minutes against Man City were the worst of my entire life. I am a big enough person to hold my hands up and admit that.
"Afterwards I apologised to the players. I said I was sorry because my display had been unacceptable.
"I said the same to the manager too and he dropped me the next game. I knew I didn't have a leg to stand on because I really was diabolical.
"That was the kick up the backside I needed.
"I am now more settled at West Ham than ever. People forget that although I was joining my local club when I signed here, I had been living up north for 10 years.
"That's why it took me last season to adjust to everything."