Andy van der Meyde is determined to grab the second chance he's been given by Everton manager Dave Moyes.
The Dutchman has returned to first team training after being suspended for ill-discipline and told the Liverpool Echo: "I was so happy to be training with the first team again. I was a month away from them. But it was my own fault.
"It was one of those things. We are all people, you know? We aren't computers. We've all got feelings and sometimes things just get too much. You just want to lay everything to one side and just think about yourself for a little bit.
"But it was my own fault. I'm back in with the team and it won't happen again. If they want me to play in the reserves or train with the reserves, I'll do that. If they want me to be involved with the first team, I'll be there for them.
"I'm just waiting for my chance now. I was in the stands against Sheffield Wednesday, so I suppose that is a start. When you train on your own, you are just in this little world and you have to keep pushing yourself.
"Now I can play in the little games, I can shoot at the goal and it feels much better. I feel fit again. I have spoken with the gaffer a few times and he understands everything. That's good because some managers just don't want to know about you.
"I still feel at home here. I love Everton and I just want to play for them again at some point. I've travelled with the team and now I just want that little bit more.
"It will come. I feel that. When I get a chance - if I get a chance - I won't let go. There are no aches, no pains, nothing. I just have to wait now and be positive. That is the only thing I can do."