Defoe has admitted to The Sun that coach Juande Ramos has told him he can leave this month, but insists: "If I had wanted to, I could have gone ages ago. I have never said I wanted to leave Spurs and I don't now.
"Every time I pull on a Spurs shirt, I have tried my best. I've always worked hard in training. I've given everything. I have not moaned at any stage and I think I've done OK scoring goals.
"Spurs fans often come up to me in the street and ask me why I am not playing.
"But I can't give them a proper explanation because I don't know myself.
"I still cannot believe what the manager said to me. It's all very strange. It's all a bit weird ? particularly when I want to be at the club.
"When he called me in the manager didn't seem happy. I really don't know what is going wrong.
"The other week I started against Villa and scored a goal.
"While we lost, I thought I had just about done enough to play against Reading.
"They were always going to make lots of changes and I felt if given a go, I could make a difference ? but I didn't get a kick."
He also revealed: "Why would I want to leave? It's all a bit bizarre, particularly as people on the board and the sporting director, Damien Comolli, have been telling me they want me to stay."