Six years after joining West Ham United, the England Under-21 defender made his full debut at Wigan Athletic, showing his promise and composure during arguably the Hammers' biggest league match in five seasons.
"The over-riding emotion at the moment is just huge disappointment," he told whufc.com. "I don't actually have words to articulate how disappointed I am.
"It was my full debut on Sunday, but throughout the season, when I've been at West Ham I've been part of the squad. I've been part of the squad from the first day of the season to the last and it's hard to take.
"I joined the club when we were in the Championship and I've played in the Championship this year [for Bristol City on loan] and it certainly wasn't the direction I wanted West Ham to take so, yes, it's disappointing.
"I'm immensely proud to represent this football club and it means so much to myself and my family. I also want to thank God because I've had some ups and downs throughout my short career, so to pull on a West Ham jersey and to start a game of this importance was fantastic for me.
"It's a proud moment and I'm sure, when the dust settles, it's a start for me that I can build on."