Newcastle United midfielder Jonjo Shelvey wants to show boss Rafael Benitez that he is a reformed character after his needless sending-off against Tottenham.
Benitez did not reinstate Shelvey to the starting line-up until Liverpool's visit to the north east at the start of October, with the player repaying the Spaniard's faith by creating his side's equaliser.
"[Liverpool] was the turning point in the season for me as I knew how I felt after that Tottenham game, I did not really want to play football to be honest," Shelvey told Soccer Saturday.
"I locked myself in my room because I did not want to speak to anyone, including my family. I just switched my phone off and turned my TV off and that was me for the rest of the night.
"But then you get that feeling after the Liverpool game where you are buzzing because you played well and assisted the goal.
"There are going to be ups and downs in football, you just have to make sure there are more ups than downs.
"My dad gave me a telling-off after the game. And I would not come out of the changing rooms until we left to go home because I felt that bad and that I had let everyone down, which I had.
"But the main people that I had to get back onside were my manager, my team-mates and the supporters of the football club. That is my aim and that is what I am going to try and do.
"I sent Rafa a text after the game when I was on my way home really apologising. The next day I came in and we had a little chat and it was forgotten about.
"I said I was going to work my socks off to regain your and the club's trust. And that is what I am working towards still."