Former Burnley defender Clarke Carlisle admits he tried to take his own life when throwing himself in front of a lorry in December.
The 35-year-old former Premier League footballer and chairman of the PFA said he had been battling serious depression for 18 months.
Speaking to The Sun, Carlisle said his life spiralled out of control after being told by ITV he was losing his £100,000-a-year Champions League pundit role. He says he went straight to a casino and blew in one night what money he and his wife had before, only hours later on December 20, being charged with drink-driving.
"I had to die," he said. 'This wasn't escaping or running away. This was the perfect answer. It made everyone happy and it ticked every box."
He is now having counselling, with The Sun claiming the police are taking no further action over the A64 crash.
