Fellaini revealed Everton boss David Moyes was upset with him.
He said: â€śI found the ban hard to take. I felt disgusted and I cut myself off from the world for 10 days.
"I stopped reading the papers and watching football on TV and retreated into a bubble.â€ť
But that experience has not caused Evertonâ€™s 11-goal top scorer to change his game.
He insisted: â€śI wonâ€™t let myself be messed around by defenders who want to tear off my foot or my head.
â€śIf the referee in the Stoke game had done his job properly I would not have been suspended. I was conned.
â€śI should not have reacted the way I did, as refs canâ€™t blow for a foul every single time.
â€śBesides, this was Stoke, and we knew to expect a physical battle. They pulled our shirts and fouled us throughout the game. In the end I saw red and shouldnâ€™t have. It was my fault.
â€śI am not angry with Shawcross. He tried to stop me, and was just doing his job.
â€śBut his hands were all over me the whole time. However, nobody said a word against him.
"He is English after all, so no problem! Afterwards I couldnâ€™t even go back to Belgium for Christmas. David Moyes made me train on my own as I had penalised the rest of the team.
â€śLuckily for me Everton won two of the three games while I was suspended!â€ť