Royston Drenthe admits booing Real Madrid fans almost brought him to tears on Sunday.
Drenthe was barracked by home fans during the 1-0 victory over Deportivo La Coruna and he said: "Yes, it's true. I almost (broke down).
"And this is normal. The Bernabeu is my home and now it seems like I am playing at an away ground.
"It does not hurt me when I'm booed away from the Bernabeu, but at home it hurts a lot. I love this club. I have a Ronaldo shirt of Real Madrid, which was a gift from my father when I was 15 years old.
"I've always been Madrid, while my family was for Barcelona. I am a child of Madrid. When the opportunity arose to sign for this team, I spoke with Mr Mijatovic and told him so directly."
Asked if he would seek a move away, Drenthe added: "No, never. I know this is difficult, but I want to strive for success here."