Chelsea striker Nicolas Anelka admits he was forced to take his missed penalty in the Champions League against his will.
Anelka was also critical of the decision by Chelsea staff to throw him on for the final few minutes of the Champions League final even though he had hardly warmed up.
"At no point did I think I was going to come on," he said. "I was on the bench for 110 minutes and suddenly I am asked to play, not even a minute after I was sent out to warm up.
The former Manchester City striker was Chelsea's fall-guy, taking the seventh and what proved to be the final penalty for the Londoners that was palmed aside by Edwin Van der Sar.
Anelka admitted he had refused to be one of the Blues' original penalty-takers.
"I was asked to take one of the first five kicks," he said.
"But I said: 'That is out of the question, I have come on basically as a right-back and you want me to take a penalty.'
"So I had to go in seventh but Van der Sar pushed away my shot. All the better for him, that is the game."