Nicklas Bendtner is currently on a season long loan with Juventus and is doubtful over a return to Arsenal. Despite struggling to make an impact in Italy, the Denmark striker is optimistic over his future and admits he has mixed feelings about going back to Arsenal to fight for his place.
Speaking to Sky Sports News ahead of Chelsea's Champions League trip to Turin, he said: "It's difficult. I feel a lot of things for Arsenal, most good things. I left, not on bad terms but not on great terms.
Bendtner pinpoints a car crash in 2009 in which he was lucky to escape with his life as a turning point in his life.
"My car crash changed a lot of things," he said. "It took a long time to get over that. Remember, I had 30 games at Sunderland. A lot of things happened for me to be there.
"Now I am where I want to be, at a Champions League club. It requires hard work and I know I need to get more games to achieve success.
"I've had to lose weight," he joked. "That happens when you don't train for a long time. But I am now perfect weight-wise. I am where I need to be to get regular games."